The Moment I Chose Who I Am Now

The previous cover of my book you saw this week was indeed an option.

But we do not go back to options, just as we do not go back to who we once were.

It served its time and space.

This is the real book cover, and this is how it will be released.

This is not a novel. It is drawn from my life, my memoir, my family history. But more than that, it is my perception of it, a reflection of a moment in time, not the whole of who I am.

And the people in this book are not the same anymore either.

There is also a deeper layer to this. From a Kabbalistic perspective, when we continuously repeat our past, we can find ourselves reliving it. What we hold onto, we recreate. And in a time where manifestation feels almost instant, it becomes important not to stay trapped in old narratives and unconsciously call the same experiences back into our lives.

Because what we live is one thing, and how we see it is another. And that changes.

Everything I have shared has been true. It was my truth in that moment, and it was true last year when the year of the snake asked all of us to shed our skin, to release layer after layer of who we believed ourselves to be.

When we created the previous cover, it felt familiar. It felt safe. And for a moment, that made sense.

But safe does not resonate with me anymore.

There was something deeper within me that immediately said this is not you anymore. Especially when I looked at the picture that was taken last year. At that time, I did not want to be seen as raw as I am now.

Frankly speaking, I really do not give a shit what people think of me anymore, because I stopped judging myself.

The version you saw before was deliberately done. It was comfortable, but it was not me.

As a former marketer, I know how easy it is to stay within the confines of a safe space, to shape something so it is accepted and understood, to make people see you in a certain way, to be liked. But that no longer aligns with me.

People-pleasing is over.

This is not another marketing exercise. This is my life’s work, and it has only just begun.

We are not one version of ourselves. We are layered, evolving, and at times in between.

We are dark and light, yin and yang, tamas and rajas, feminine and masculine. The integration of both is key.

This was divine intervention. Two different covers marking the moment I chose who I am now.

This cover may feel daring. It may not be what you expected. But it is aligned.

The version you saw before felt comfortable. This one feels real. And that matters more.

And yes, there is a cost to this. Not everyone comes with you.

Clarity creates distance, and I have felt that. But what I gained is clarity in who I am and acceptance of myself as I am. I learned to love myself and honour myself.

I am not here to package my life into something digestible. I am here to express it as it is.

This is not a self help book as I do not give recipes how to reach an express ticket to enlightment.

But I share how different tools can help to look at change from different angles, as I myself used a tool box and still continue to study various tools to adapt to the different stages of my life.

And if you are in a space where something no longer feels like you, you will understand exactly what I mean.

I am not the same person I was ten years ago, five years ago, one year ago, or even last month or yesterday, and that is not something to resist. It is something to honour.

We are meant to reinvent ourselves, again and again.

Let creativity become the language through which you live. We are here to co-create our lives alongside the Divine, not to stand by and let life happen to us, but to allow it to happen for us. It is the same as a dance, an improvisation on the same piece of music, yet always a different choreography, as each tone, each instrument is felt in that moment, in that space.

And this is my improvisation. Forever a dancer.

The book is coming soon. This is the beginning. Part Two is being written as we speak.

Be raw. Be real. Be you.